Lonely Times......

This is a lonely business. I have family here in AZ, kids, mother, brothers, sister, friends and co-workers. Everyone knows I am moving to the UAE, and it never surprised anyone that I am doing this again. I have always been different. I have never been the social butterfly. I was the watcher, observer, learner of people and their ways. I have friends but they are select since, I do not let just anyone into my private life.

My best friend I have known since I was 17. Our husbans were best friends, our kids played together. We have gone through hell and high water and came out the other side stronger. Now, I am able to follow my dreams and my dearsest friend is staying home with fibro and lupus. How do I feel joy about my new adventure when she is suffering so. She is a trooper and thinks this is a great thing I am doingand happy for me.

My sister is great and wishes she could go with me and I hope she will come over for a vacation. My brothers have their lives to live. One is in college and busy and one has a family going into the fun teen years with his daughter. They are to busy to notice.

My mother on the other hand I worry about. She has had a boyfriend for over 30 years and he is now almost 90 and health wise not doing well. My mother has taken care of him and pushed him to live. I worry that if he dies she will take it hard, and I will be on the other side of the world living my life.

These were some of the things that I had struggled with. I am not worried about my kids. We all had to find our own way once we became adults, now it is their time to figure it out. I am the momma bird pushing them out of the nest to never let them return.

I feel selfish at times. So I don't talk to anyone about how cool and excited I am to be going to the UAE. I have found a group on facebook that allows me to be excited. But this is a lonely time.

http://youtu.be/1lyu1KKwC74

Thursday, May 26, 2011

The steps.......

Welcome to my day.  It started out kinda crazy.  I was driving to work and listening to my song and got all teary eyed. I have no idea why.  The only thing I think is that I am getting impatient for my docs to come back.  They will get here, I just have to wait (not my strong suite).

So here are some of the things I have to get done before I hop on the jet  http://youtu.be/XyQ1znMc3og.

Finish doc process
Move out of apartment
Sell bed
Store my 42 years (in 4 boxes)
Kiss my Kids and Grandkids so they remember me
Cook meal for my friends so they don't forget me
Pack my suite cases and not let them go over 50lbs
Digitize  resources
Get more passport photos
Get physical
Get new glasses
save 1000 to 2000 bucks to live on.

these next two months are going to go by so fast.
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Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Here is a song that has become my inspiration.  I will post more as I get inspired
http://youtu.be/tCvMKcNJCAY
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